It does help me to talk. It upsets me when someone disagrees with me so I would rather have a therapist that will just listen to me and not tell me I'm doing something wrong. When someone tells me that it always upsets me, because I already know I do things wrong and I already hate myself for it.

Because a therapist, it's not their job to love you, they aren't supposed to love you, so it doesn't help with that. I need someone to actually love me.
Newborn babies don't love themselves before they are loved, so it is hard to understand why I am expected to love myself first.

This is the way I think it should go.

1.You are loved
2.You love yourself
3.You can love other people

But most people expect me to skip the first part. Some of them actually think I should and it is fair, but some people maybe just know I don't have a choice but to skip it in this world.