I too have been married 25 years, and my recent bout of depression (last 3-4 years) has left me devoid of emotions. I no longer have feelings of love for my wife. I care very much about her, but it's more like we're companions than spouses. I don't know why she stays with me. I think I have to find a way to love myself before I'll be capable of loving anybody else. I hope I can get thru this depression and rediscover my love for her...