Hi guys

In July 2014, my dad passed away. It was one of those life events I could never wrap my head around, and I took really hard on myself. As a former addict, I made an ugly relapse which almost reached suicidal levels. I underwent psychiatric treatment, psychotherapy, addiction counselling, and I fought so hard to stand on my feet again.

Now I'm not undergoing any treatment, I'm sober since October 2015, zero debt, changed my career into a better one, have a healthy relationship with my wife and son. That sounds like good achievements, however, I noticed that ever since I started recovering, my emotions flatlined completely. I have zero interest in doing anything, I do everything just to play a long with life, whether to pay bills, to pay rent, to raise my kid, but deep inside I have zero feelings, whether positive or negative.

I started to become a really cold person inside. I've stopped all enjoyable activities that I used to do, but when I tried doing them again, I felt nothing at all. I'm writing this only because one thing is worrying me. It's that I'm starting to like it.

Please tell me what you think

Cheers