Hi there, disguise. I noticed your post in the resources thread, and moved it to its own thread so that you can get replies. I also changed the subject line. If you would rather have something else, let me know, ok?
You're a nursing graduate - if you had a patient who was your height and weight, would you tell her that she is fat? Eating disorders distort how you see yourself. I think you are onto something about emotional problems. There's always more to it than just the behavior, or the food, etc. I hope that you can get some help seeing yourself more clearly, both physically and emotionally.
TC,
Rap