With T1 it was definitely mixed messages. He had push/pull boundaries which seemed to trigger some great desire to please him, and a constant longing for him. It related to my childhood and took about a year to dissipate after I stopped seeing him. I think he was incompetent rather than deliberately abusive.
I do have some level of attachment to current T but it is carefully processed in session and I feel in control of it. It seems to relate more to where I am in therapy and I feel it will pass as we work through this stuff.
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