i am so sorry for being unsupportive to you all...i have posted alot referring to myself...i feel like im drowning....its to the point literally where any skin to skin contact is becoming too much...i dont even know how i survive my job as a nursing assistant....being near even my bf is causing panicky feelings....i can no longer handle quick movements or loud noises...im so overwhelmed...please forgive me pc .....i hope that this all will go away soon...perhaps i will try to be able to help every single one of you as soon as possible....i want to support you all....i just cannot seem to manage anything other than a horrible post that is self indulgent...please forgive me once again..i will try to be better