Hi there, I am sorry you are so depressed. I have had major depression on more than one occasion. You and I both know how horrible it is.

You may not like my answer, but you asked. I absolutely think you should go see a doctor. I think you should go see a psychiatrist that specializes in mood disorders, specifically. You need a professional that is experienced in this area. Get a full mental health evaluation. Major depression can also occur in other illnesses, like bipolar disorder.

I also think you should reconsider medication. There are new medications out regularly and it is very possible there is one that will help you. It might take more than one medication. It may take trying a few different meds to find what works. It's not fun but it is worth it when the depression lifts. It's like having a new lease on life. Therapy as an adjunct to this can change your life profoundly- for the better.

This is just my opinion. I hope you consider it. I can't see a significant downside...what do you have to lose? Lose the depression, you need help doing that and you deserve happiness and health. You sound strong. I think you can do this. xo