So yeah, I've been obsessing over my T more than usual this week. I'm worried she doesn't like me, finds me annoying and is frustrated with me. I have written down all the things I want to say to her but I feel bad about it because last session T made it seem like writing things down and reading them to her was a bad thing. She said it creates distance and removes some of the emotion from it and makes it seem like I'm reading out a story.

My T is only 10 years older than me at the most but she seems much older because I feel like a little kid when I'm in therapy. I just want her to love me and take care of me but I know that can never happen.