Thank you so much for your replies. Lost in The woods...thank you for your lovely words. I do try to reflect and evaluate myself and I am very honest with myself. That's one of the reasons this is so unbearable. If one person is honest in the relationship, and the other isn't.....and if they can't even look into themselves and be honest with themselves, what hope is there?
You make a good point Rainyday....before we got together, he was very promiscuous, but also always practiced safe sex, as the crowd he was with all were. But I will follow up.
Again, thanks for your words and support.