I've noticed these "wrong" feelings are triggered by trying to make contact with other people. This has especially been pronounced with my T. Every time I share something I get the overwhelming feeling. I have talked to T about it a bit, but I don't think he really understands much yet. It's an overwhelming feeling and it doesn't make sense for the situations.

The CBT stuff was interesting, but this isn't a thought this is a feeling. An overpowering feeling that puts me in a dark place. I have to fight it. I don't understand it.