Thank you for your kind reply. It's good to know this stuff can be beat.

My diagnosis is recurrent major depression and PTSD. I have been cutting for about 7 years, am weird though because I started in my 30s, not my teens.

I went about a year without cutting till May or June of this year. I don't find that my T keeps reminding me of it, but it is still the first thing I think of every time I'm overwhelmed, so we talk about it then. I did cut tonight, but not very badly, little more than scratches...got into it with a pair of scissors for a bit...but the more I did it, the more I realized that no matter how much I did or how bad I did it, it wasn't going to make me feel any better. I'll deal with it tomorrow in therapy.

I am on so many meds I could open my own pharmacy -- Klonopin for anxiety, Effexor XR and desipramine for depression, Lamictal for a mood stabilizer because "they" are still trying to decide whether or not I'm really bipolar 2 instead of plain vanilla depressed, and Risperdal, which is supposed to help with the cutting, oddly enough. :-) I did just take an extra one a few minutes ago and it does take the edge off, but when I'm in moods like this, I just don't want to be talked out of it.

I'm glad to hear you have had such success with stopping this behavior and I hope someday I will do as well.

Thanks for responding to me.

Candy