I tried to post a thread earlier but it got lost somehow.My session was all right until the end when I brought up what T said last week about it being okay to send her a photo every few months, or maybe she said two months. I asked why not more often. She said I know that it's the right thing to do because of the answers in my thread. I had told her about it. I said " I don't want to be just your job." I don't know what she answered but I left the office and just sat in the lobby crying a little. People walk into the building but not that many.

I sat there 45 minutes not knowing whether I could knock on her door again. Then she came out and saw me there. She sat next to me and I said "you didn't say anything after I said "I'm just your job." So she said "it's true you're my job and, ( or maybe she said but) I care about you very much. I said "hold my hand" and she did immediately. That felt good like it used to feel. She repeated that I could email if I need to. But knowing that she wants me to separate from her and not need her, I don't know what to do. Besides, I've got a lot of stressful stuff going on now in my life which was mainly what my session was about. So I'm back to day by day. I am grateful my T had to pee so she saw me there! I was actually going to post on the forum but then she magically appeared! She told me to put the phone down. I know she cares and wants what is best for me. I just wish it didn't mean separating from her.