I agree that someone who really cares about you and wants what is best for you will teach you how to be ok on your own and how to let go. You have an amazing T. I hope you know how lucky you are to have her. I know its hard when you think you are just there job but if that was totally the case she wouldn't be pushing you to not rely on her so much. I think you are more than just a 'job' to her.

How are you doing now? I think you should try recording your sessions so you will know what is said if you forget and you can always listen and reflect on it. It really helped me with those things. Now I have my sessions to listen to when I miss my T.