Thread: I feel wrong
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Old Jul 05, 2016, 11:28 PM
Nimitri Nimitri is offline
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Originally Posted by BrazenApogee View Post
So, you are saying this is just some weird form of self-pity?
No. If it's just like me it's an overwhelming sense of responsibility. That it's your duty to be perfect, to protect and grant happiness, safety and so many other things to people around you. That the unhappiness of others and their health are your burden and so you must act and there is no such thing as second chances, to fail, to not be the elite human.

Could it be self-pity? I don't know but I can tell you this. You must have compassion for yourself. Whatever the reason is, you must have compassion. And yes, a little or a lot of self-pity. It might be that you had such a little pity for yourself, so little apology for your actions that it's creating this sensation of wrongness. For me it's a weight on my shoulders and back it's a fear that I'm wasting my life, my opportunities, that I'm burning my bridges and that a successful person should work 12 hours a day, have a group of 10 friends, house, wife, be a self-made man that can and will made this world better.

it was not until now that I had started to be compassion with me, to have pity and accept my limitations that my feeling of wrongness had abated, that I can fight this emotion and let it go from my life day to day.

Sorry, Had anything I said sound familiar? That has happened to you? Might I inquire what is your dialogue that accompanies this sense of wrongness, the words or images? They helped me in the beginning give coherences to this words and pictures because it let them out of my mind and to examine them and see the line without the repetition of anxiety and reproach.
Thanks for this!
BrazenApogee