Because of my psychotic episodes, there has been some dead air between us. She continuously tells me that it is all in my head, which is true, but she repeats that I can stop it only by myself, which is not so true..
She constantly ignores my messages even though she knows that she is the only person in my life right now that I can talk with.
She says things like "Leave me alone for a while"
And I have extreme paranoia around her. She is currently dating another guy because we are in an open relationship, because if I close the relationship she will cheat on me.
She hugs every single ex, which her exes are everywhere..
She continuously says that she is not happy and that happiness is not real.
If I leave her I am on my own, which is not a good idea because I am suicidal. What do I even do in this situation.. Is there a way out?