just was asking myself "what do I care about?" I started to list.
I care about:
My Grandsons
My Son
My Sister
I realized I hadn't considered "myself"
So I asked me "do I care about myself?" And I don't know how to answer that. I care that my body is well, I care that everyone is functioning as well as they can, I care if some are suffering, but I "care about myself" is unknown to me. I suppose collective I can say yes but I feel intellectually and emotionally disconnected from that concept.
I think we all agree that right now we all feel tired, drained, an no resolve in sight. I have to figure out how to get back to being strong. I think having so many of us who are strong in their own way isn't enough for us to function. To make decisions. To feel life. I can count the times when I actually felt the feeling of joy and true happiness. Is this the same for people without DID? Maybe I expect too much from feeling.