Hi splitlivez, I can relate to what you're saying. My mom passed in 2007 which only worsened my already growing depression. I've only just started to realize that I feel numb majority of the time with the exception of the crippling sadness that comes with this diagnosis. I think sometimes it's hard to let go of that depression when it's the only thing you feel.
Are you still going to therapy? Maybe it's something your therapist can help with.

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