I can understand holding on to a bad relationship when you're lonely and that person is your only source of support.


But from what you've posted this girl doesn't even want to be supportive of you.


So, at the end of the day she gets everything she wants: A devoted bf who lets her sleep around on him so that she doesn't cheat instead, as well as all the space she can possible need or want.


What exactly is she giving you in return?


What are you really getting out of this relationship?


Just some points for you to ponder, no need to answer them here.


I really hope you get some help soon and please do call a hotline if you need talk things through urgently.