I feel like sometimes its just not the right " time" for therapy. I was in therapy during vet school, then did not return for nearly 15 years. Reason being my real life, building my career and marriage, etc etc required ALL NY focus. I was a newly practicing veterinarian , then by the time I had enough years experience to feel comfortable I decided to start my own practice. So then I was a new business owner starting a business.
I didn't have the spare emotional energy or focus for therapy during that time.
I decided my problems, while big, were manageable enough , or more manageable than another major commitment would be.
When my practice was established, I was ready to devote energy to therapy.
To do that I had to put some other big projects on hold. My hope eventually is that as I get my trauma worked through therapy will take less and less of my emotional energy.
Then I'd have spare energy to return to my big project ( 2nd draft of my novel)
So, we go through different stages of life and some stages therapy just does not seem possible.