How do you know when it's time to end therapy? I personally don't want to end it because I feel like I'd probably get very depressed if I didn't have anyone to talk to. Anyway, since it's starting to feel like my psychologist is going to let me know she thinks we should end it or take a break soon-ish I've been thinking about my situation it and sometimes I think that maybe (just maybe) it wouldn't be that bad to not see a psychologist anymore. Very unsure though. Let me explain.

I've seen my psychologist for a little more than two years. Before I started talking to her I had seen two other psychologists who hadn't really been able to help me. Before I started talking to my current psychologist I was undiagnosed (well, I had a bunch of diagnoses but not the correct one), I suffered from so much anxiety that I spent time lying in foetal position on the floor or in my bed unable to stop myself from thinking about all my anxious thoughts and unable to get up. Everything hurt and I was so indescribably depressed and afraid. I even hit myself in the head sometimes just to try to make the thoughts stop and my brain to shut up.

Two years later and I have a correct diagnosis, I've learned a lot about myself and the world around me, and I'm not nearly as anxious and depressed as I used to be. My psychologist has probably saved my life. Anyway, that doesn't mean I'm doing well nowadays. I think a lot and a lot of the things I think about make me feel worried or sad. My current life situation isn't great and I still don't like myself. I feel like I'm kinder to myself nowadays (which is something my psychologist and I have worked hard on) but I still hate myself. I used to always (every day) think of how much I hated myself but it's better now, even though I still don't like myself. Sometimes I'm doing really bad though. This week I haven't felt that bad but, I mean, about a month ago I was so low and anxious I spent at least an hour reading about suicide methods and many more hours thinking about it (though I don't want to kill myself). It varies.

Basically, sometimes I think I'd be OK without my psychologist and sometimes I really think I wouldn't be. However, even if I'd be OK without my psychologist for a while I'm really worried I wouldn't be OK in the long run. So, how does one know when it's time to end therapy?