I feel like I'm drowning again. It hurts when I think I can rely on someone for something, only to get disappointed after putting trust and faith into them. I blame myself for everything and don't feel I know how to do anything right. So much second guessing: What did I do wrong? Why aren't I worth loving when I give so much of myself? There are things I wish I can erase or undo, but I can't and have no choice but to deal with the pain now. So many regrets. I wish there was a medication that could help with that.