what is life without this?
what other things in life do you enjoy....
what you supposed to do
i can't think of anything else...
how do you find something to like...
to find something that makes you feel better?
not these forbiddens.... why is it such a bad thing?
when you cant seem to think of anything else... not preocupied with the things...
but just cant think of anything else that you could possibly enjoy even a little...

did i kill myself inwardly years ago..?
you get used to the pain... its the pain that you cant get used to....
know what i mean - need a search party to go find the remnants, where are my likes and dislikes?
is there anybody there?