Oh Rainbow I really feel for you. I am pretty sure that I will one day have to go through exactly the same thing as you are going through now and I am not looking forward to it one bit. I think you are dealing with it all really well and I hope I can do as good as you when I get there. Your T does seem very good and I am pleased for you she was there for you after your session the other day. I do wonder whether you starting to hold hands in session would help slightly. I am going to ask my T to hold my hand again next week, she has done it twice and it felt really nice, like I could feel a connection. I am sure it is there without it but I liked feeling it.

It is a loss, a big loss and one that, if you are not quite ready for it, will be so very tough for you. Just take it slowly, I am sure your T will work through this with you.