In early April I broke up with my girlfriend of two years, she was everything to me but one day I was freaking out about a lot of stuff and she was the one that I let it out on and I told her I was done, ever since then I have regretted it. However this is not what has caused my depression, I have been depressed for about 3 years. But, breaking up with my girlfriend has made it a lot worse, not to mention 3 days prior to the break up my grandma who I was very close with passed away. So far everyday since May I have had suicidal thoughts and have attemped to kill myself twice. It's not that I want to die, it's just that I can't take this feeling of having no one in my life that truly cares about me. I should have no reason to feel like this, I have a full ride scholarship lined up to a great university for track and field but it doesn't make me feel better. If I could get any advice it would be much appreciated. Thanks