I, too, cared for kids that I intended to mother my whole life & got them taken away, both of us, we have big hearts, I can tell....The positive is that you do have an attroney, right? I know what it feels like to be....'...slammed..' in many ways not just what happened with the kids I cared for I've been slammed other ways too and it hurts...

You sound so giving- spending time with adult children as well as the one you had for 14 months....update us, tell us more, I care........a lot of people do here....as you know....