Yeah, I know that snowball effect all too well! Hypo/mania tends to ensue quickly from a lack of sleep...

I can probably take loads of Ativan to knock me out, although I have to be careful not to OD on that stuff. I also have to drive everyone around, so there's that too. Don't wanna fall asleep at the wheel!

No idea if I'm working my way through stages of grief. I don't feel sad and have never felt sad. Though, I suppose anger could be a coping mechanism to avoid sadness? No idea. This is getting too theoretical for me already.