Dear Shattered Sanity,
Accepting help is our best hope when it comes to keeping our depression at bay. Keep reaching out.
Mental Healthcare doctors, nurses, etc. are not all created equal. They are fallible like us. Some care, some don't. Some are exceptionally talented, some average, some bungling, etc. Anything they tell you, you have to take with a grain of salt. Sometimes we can sense intuitively if they care. The ones that care are worth their weight in gold. Reach out to other providers, maybe you will eventually stumble across a good one.
I'm sorry your anxious. Do you like the sunshine? Is there anyway you can force yourself to go outside and peak at the sunrise? What do you think about when you are anxious? My therapist recommends that I write it down. Sometimes when I read what I have written, the worry seems a lot more minor. Yes, I know that fear feeling is still there. Some of us don't have to watch horror movies to experience it (just think, some people love horror movies, weird).
I know you are still feeling anxious. Think of it as a wave. Hopefully you are at the crest. Think of how great it will feel on the ride down. It will be less intense at that point.
I truly hope you'll be able to leave your room! Being cooped up maybe intensifying your feelings.
Myst