When I'm hypo things are usually great initially but I always end up getting suicidal, and when the full blown mania hits I become even more suicidal. Depression doesn't make me nearly as suicidal as mania and hypomania can for some reason. But my depressive episodes are usually far less often than the manias. Right now I feel like I'm hypo having come off of an incredibly intense mania and I'm quite suicidal. I told my psychiatrist he other week that I think about suicide every single day but I don't think I real,y want to die. If I did it it would be an impulsive thing and not something I planned.