I have body anxiety. What does it have to do, etc. I hate this. Now I have a headache too. We have to call the cab in about 30 minutes. Slightly longer. Why do I get like this?

And I already started getting scared of the stairs. What am I going to do? My mother snapped at me last time I called her (she never calls me, she expects everyone to pay tribute to her and call her). Anyway she snapped and nastily said "they'll have to put you in a cardboard box and take you out of the window".

Her nastiness is fine with me as long as I never call her. You'd have had to hear her tone of voice and know her to know how hostile she has gotten towards me. She doesn't even try to hide it anymore.

Yes, mom. Tell me more about the forklifts. Tell me again not to upset my sister while I'm locked in the hospital psych ward. Cheese and rice, what an effed up family I come from.