Hi, Planningtoexist...
That sounds like my 20 year marriage, like that from the honeymoon onward! I was 47 when I broke away. I thought, maybe, after that, I'd meet the love of my life, but I was wrong.
I'm feeling now that posting about all of this is a bit of wallowing on my part, but it seems to be generating discussion from others who identify, or who have encouraging suggestions. Having 4 years of solo work now, with no dating, I'm seeing my mistakes glaringly, accepting responsibility for my poor judgment. Like Perna said, I kissed a lot of frogs, but the chemistry was not right, though I tried to make it work. The thought of dating now, trying to get to know someone, seems exhausting work to me now. Maybe I'll think otherwise eventually...maybe not.
Patty