Thank you all for your replies.

I just had my session tonight and it went really well. I told T all of the things I wrote here and she was very receptive. She said she wondered if I would take her "observations" as critisism because it had kind felt like she was "talk at me" due to my withdrawal. T said it seems similar to how I feel when my parents lecture me and I just have to sit and bare it until it is over. That is exactly how it felt and T also said that might be why I felt so helpless and childlike.

We spoke a lot about how I'm stuck because I fear that if I don't make enough progress she will get fed up with me but I also fear making too much progress and not needing her anymore. T said being stuck isn't a bad thing, it is just more information about me that will help us gain a better understanding of what is going on. T then suggested a couple of ideas to help me get "unstuck". The first one was laying down on the couch . I told T that kind of freaked me out and she said she just wanted to put it out there and that everyone is freaked out by it at first haha. The second option was creating more of a space for me to be my own person and to not feel intruded upon and to try an reduce the "push-pull" thing we have going on at the moment. I'm not sure what that will involve exactly but I like the idea. I'm even curious about laying down... have any of you tried it?