<font color="blue"> Normally I try to be very positive and find something forward-looking to post. But in here, this forum, this PTSD forum, tonight... nah, can't do it. My apologies in advance.

This is for those with PTSD, this post.
No one else will understand, trust me. Maybe you won't either, but unfortunately, you will eventually.

People just don't "get it" do they? They don't understand PTSD. Even professionals miss it. It takes a well-trained, wonderfully compassionate therapist (of any making) to understand, and to help those of us with PTSD also understand.

For someone to think that our being triggered is something we control, well, isn't that ignorant of them?
For one to judge another, who suffers with PTSD, saying they know better, that's so misunderstanding, don't you think?

As if, when triggered, we even know what planet we're on, and to expect respect and all that good stuff that normal humans encounter, from us at the time... just isn't "getting it" at all imo.

Let me share with you, so you know I know also... when I'm triggered, I don't even know I"m triggered till well after the return to semi-normalcy. There's no fixing that for now, believe me. The best I - or any of us- can do is realize it happened and work through the why of it. Putting that together is the best the mind can do for the brain. I've had to share here (and IRL and other places) many, many times how when I was injured authorities did nothing to help me...and took 3 days to get me any medical attention. IF they had bothered to do what any respectable human would have done, I may very well have not been disabled for life.

So now, when ANY authority figure doesn't do what appears to me to be "fair" and just, then I'm triggered. Have I worked on my opinion about fair and just? Of course. That doesn't mean I have it all right. But when rules continually change in my sight, and in attempts to find truth, I am also triggered because my intentions and tone are misunderstood? Control is gone. Anyone who knows me knows this about me.

I keep saying the mantra, to try and help allay any such reactions... (yeah right).... "They don't understand, they won't understand, they can't understand."

I can't even tell you something positive about it.