this afternoon we relived something that happened over 2 years ago (still very strong in our mind i suppose!)

anyway without going in to detail, it was a suicide experience- where another insider called the police to say the entire system was suicidal, and when they arived at 2 in the morning someone else told them we were fine and they shouldn't worry (and some others even lied and said we never thought about suicide)

i suppose that's why we're so afraid of the police... we don't like them at all.

it was on the 1st august.. and the insider in question badly wanted to talk

now we are suicidal again!