i feel bad.. because i cant seem to ever remember what the therapist tells me..
im not sure what im supposed to be doing, besides i guess try to stay in the present... but the little things she said to do to try to help that i remember dont really seem to make this... fog... go away... what am i suposed to do to not be just wasting everyones time..? she knows that i cant really remember ... pretty much anything... but i dont want to make her mad and she think im not trying... because i am just not able to think so well... and my memory is really broken right now... but its complicated i guess because i've been doing it for so long nothing really looks too wrong on the surface.. atleast to most people.. i guess, i mean i dont think anyone really believes me... but this sucks... seems like i cant find anyone to relate or believe me.. im just tired.. and feel like im wasiting everyones time because im so complicated... so hard to live in many worlds