oh dear, i really dont like recording stuff
no pictures or video either, i cant bare to see how i act

well i told her and she said that it would definitely seem that im dissociating...
i just dont know what im suposed to do to help it... because i think maybe i dont want to stop because of different reasons... its just really breaking my memory and maybe im losing a lot of time...

the worse case scenario i think is it turns out to be a
??? i just know something is wrong and i want them to help me i just think no one can help me now... my brain is rogue, i hate wasting time

she does print a couple of these things out for me.. thats how i remember to try those exercises... its just so bad, how can it be so bad

ugh... just getting tired of this... thats all...