Thanks guys for your responses. No I don't go for therapy anymore, because I did it for years and learnt all the skills taught in these CBT sessions which I apply intensively in my life until now. I refuse to take antidepressants becausr they have always pushed me at one point back to drugs. I have a full life, I hang out, work, connect with others, but I just do them for the hell of it. I stopped feeling so many things even the depression itself, I don't wake up feeling blue nowadays (which I guess it should be a blessing), but I carry with me the poker face everywhere