I felt the exact. same. way when I got clean. ****, I still feel like that from time to time. For me, abstaining from the drugs was the easier part. The hardest part has been learning how to function in life as a sober person. Trying to figure out who the hell I am, because that damn sure wasn't me for ten years. It so hard because it's like you've been in a coma and now you have to learn how to do life all over again. I've been dealing with a lot of concern over how the hell I am supposed to ever be in a relationship again...I mean, I can't be with some normie, that doesn't get me at all and would never empathize with what I've been through, but I also can't be with someone that uses because then I would probably get sucked back into that life again. That's why I've been single for almost a year, since I got clean. I'm such a **** up that I don't even know what it will be like to have sex with someone when I'm sober, bc I was high for ten years. Ughhh. It's almost too much to think about. Lol. I know this was your post looking for some good advice, and I didn't really give any, I just vented! I'm sorry! I do have some good advice though; feel the pain. Feel the hurt. Cry if you have you. As addicts, we always want to kill the pain, what we don't realize is, feeling the pain makes us stronger and better people. As time goes on, you will understand what I mean...good luck to you, my friend!

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