I also have this need to - kind of - asking for acceptance and attention by changing my looks and being obsessed with being pretty (I was often rejected for my looks, bc I was ugly due to my hormonal problems, and I did a lot of things to avoid that, like loosing 30 kg, being perfect in make up, changing hairstyles), because I find it as an easy way to get positive responds from people and feeling desired (Though I don't really care for being sexually desired). I feel so rejected by everyone (due to long term bullying and being a family scapegoat) that I feel like I can do whatever it takes to feel loved. It's weird for a 21 year old attractive female to never be in a relationship and don't have sexual life. I have many male friends, mostly they're handsome, sensitive and clever guys and I often catch myself longing for physical contact or daydreaming about getting intimate with them. And I really do need to control myself, because there were times I actually was trying to obtain that and the results were bad and it looked more like a primary school play, I also lacked sensitivity and was too clingy and straightforward.