So sorry you're going through this and feeling so badly. I can totally relate. I hope you know you're not alone.

My family treats me much differently now, like I'm some fragile doll that's going to break. I know they also wish I'd be the girl I was many years ago but I just don't feel like I ever will be. But I try to have hope. I'm early in my treatment as I just got diagnosed is past spring, so I have to hold on to a thread of hope that maybe I can be her again. I hope thst you can find some hope too.