Wow. So a lot of us are in the fear of rejection club. I also hate to think that I might be putting someone out. Again, I believe this comes from my mother because she was (is) so extremely lazy and I always felt like I was being a bother when I would ask her something... she would act so put out, even if it was a little thing. Everything for her was (and still is) a major production. When I first met my mother-in-law (who I am now very, very close with) I would be afraid to go into her livingroom and talk with her because I didn't want to "bother" her. As it turned out she really wanted to talk with me and I ended up becoming closer with her than my own mother.

I am so afraid. I am afraid to say to T, "I have no school on Tuesday-- can I come here?" This is well after I have attended 2x per week on a regular basis-- and I am still afraid to ask for an extra session.

When I hear "no" I feel like a little kid. Or like a puppy who just peed on the floor. Tail between legs. I'm sorry I bothered you. I didn't mean to make you get up. :-(

I supposed I should talk with T about all of this.