Yesterday morning started out good. I went and met with a lady from housing authority and she told me that the next time I come in it will be to sign a lease. So I was happy. THEN I had to be dropped off at an appointment early because someone else had an appointment. SO I was dropped off an hour early. It would not have bothered me so much but where my appointment was was not in a very safe neighborhood and the office where my appointment was is closed from 12 noon to 1 pm. I was able to get in early but found out that if I am not careful that I will no longer beable to use the sexual assault crisis line. EVEN though I THOUGHT I was doing good and not abusing it they say I am. For example I started having really bad flashbacks during the fireworks on Friday or Saturday and the staff that was working was laughing at me and so was my housemate. So I went in the house after I finished my cigarette and called the crisis line. I guess that was not an emergency/crisis and I was honest with the person that I did not use any of my skills. I know that my advocate is trying to keep it so I can call the crisis line and things like that but I feel like I am being scolded all the time.
Anyways, then I had art group after my appointment and they closed an hour early because I was the only that showed up. I just feel lost and lonely and feel like hiding in my shell.