U didn't really answer what made u fall in love with her? or are u in love with her?

Also, when is the last time u brought her flowers and set them in her room for her, or even lay next to her bed at the moments she is starring and just holding her like u do understand, even if u don't. No questions asked, just be there.

My suspicions are something triggered all this, and it doesn't seem to be coming out in your threads.

I may be wrong of course.