Thanks everyone for the responses. Once again I forgot to select "email notifications" as I set up the thread so I didn't know I was getting responses, and you know me, "out of sight, out of mind." Something reminded me today that I had started this and so I remembered to check it just now.
The thing is I do need a change of scenery, but moving across the country is a little extreme. I wouldn't mind being closer to D.C. because I love history, but it's also quite expensive. And I'm also quite nervous about the idea of her moving all that way just to date a guy. To move to be with someone you're in a committed relationship with is risky enough; and she's already telling me she's frustrated that the guy is texting her less and less. She thinks the answer is to move out there as quickly as possible. I'm not sure that's the right move.
The thing is I've got so much stress at once. I
do need to start seeing my therapist again, and I was able to sneak in an appointment with her this coming week. However as you noted I am quite frustrated with my job, and just today I again had another very stressful situation that made me say to myself "I need to get out of here, and
yesterday!" But if I leave that means another spell without insurance when I just got back on it. Further, if I leave the job I will miss seeing the young lady I so desperately want to ask out... except that I refuse to ask her out as long as we work together, so it's kind of pointless to stay there.
The other thing is I just turned 40 which has been freaking me out, and I feel like I have to get everything figured out right now... which puts even more stress on me and makes me want to just throw up my hands and play video games instead. Last night I was talking to a friend and I said to her, "Maybe it's not such a bad thing if I just find another job around here instead of thinking I have to move or get a whole new career."
I don't know. I need a vacation.