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Originally Posted by Yours_Truly
Got really depressed on the ride home tonight to the point of a few tears. I finally had to turn the radio on because I kept writing in my mind to PsyCentral. I wondered if I would get away with starting a thread that started out with, "What is so wrong with suicide? There are only 4 people in the whole world who would miss me, & even then they would get on. I'm not married, have no kids, no one depends on me. What if I just don't have what it takes to make it in this world, the courage, the self-esteem? I've already lived through probably the happiest times I'm ever going to. It has only gotten worse. It's obvious I'm not one of the lucky ones. Why should I live some miserable, pathetic life? The only reason I'm still here is because I can't figure out a way & I'm too damn afraid I'd mess it up. Give me one good reason why I should want to live. I'll let you know if I agree." It was so much better when I wrote it in my head.
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I've seen my own life, as well as the lives of others, after a loved one dies. Not even by suicide, but as the result of fatal illness. It has ruined us. All of us that I know are just in chronic decay because we couldn't just go back to "normal". So please discard the myth that others will be better off, or that they'll cope and move on. They won't. They'll keep dragging on, lame and sick. It won't be like in a movie. Real people never get over it.
