Cash, the whole point of PC is that we can use it when we need to, so please keep posting. We all care about you and want to send your our hugs and best wishes, and no one minds how often you write or what you say. What you're going through is so sad and so difficult, we want to help even if not IRL. Wish I was rich enough to fly to the US and stay, and I'd baby sit. I bet your kids are cute!