Thank you! I see my therapist regularly. I saw her last today. She was very concerned and had me promise not to harm myself a day at at time until I next see her and to call if I feel unsafe...which I do...much of the time. Still, I have never made any attempts in my lifetime and that, coupled with my brutal honesty, will keep me out of the hospital unless it is absolutely necessary. I have to not only worry about my sanity but also worry about my children's well being while in the midst of this *most likely* divorce.

I have called my pdoc but as ridiculous as his office has proven to be is as ridiculous (don't get me started)as he has proven to be. The good news is I am going back to a pdoc who I can't afford with the help of my mom who desperately wants me better. I have an appointment with her on Thursday. She uses the genesight testing and does something called TMS which I admittedly know nothing about but is apparently innovative. Here is the website if you want to check it out.

About Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation TMS