i ended up harming myself today...i havent done that in 3 years...i talked to T on the phone twice...im nto psychotic i am just .. depressed.... iw ent to work and it distracted me... now im back in my house..in my room,..in my bed......and i dunno. i woke up at 5 am and just started driving. i drove and hour away. i wanted to keep going to keep driving until i reached the tip of florida... just get away from here. but i couldnt... i turned around and came back. i wish i would do something crazy and just... get away from myslef