And by real confidence, I mean confidence that isn't completely destroyed at the first sign of failure or criticism, real or perceived.

I do know it has nothing to do with experience. I have plenty of it. I could also tell you the things I'm good at. But I have no confidence that I'll actually perform at the proper level when I need to every time. It also seems that some people think I'm better than I actually am.

I just lost what little confidence I had been able to build up recently...I'm just about done at this point. I'll never have any confidence ever at this rate.