Thank you everyone for your warm welcome and understanding. It's nice to be in a place that does both so well.

We have 3 children together, 2 biological and 1 that I claim as my own. I'm really hoping that things can be fixed between us. I know that one of the things that she will be looking for is my willingness to get help. In that regard, I have already set up an appointment for Monday to meet with someone in a neighboring town. I also have other safeguards that I've told her that I'm willing to put in place as good measures (medical and financial power of attorney). While I trust myself to put my very best foot forward, I can't say what effects medication will have on me, and I want to be prepared for anything.

Forgive me, I definitely meant Bipolar Disorder, not Borderline Personality Disorder. Thank you for clarifying. You all have been so great so far. I look forward to sharing my experiences here, and taking advantage of some of the resources available. I've even ordered one of the books off of the recommended reading list already, that should be here next week.

I know that no matter what happens with my relationship, this is the best step for me to take to be well. I love my wife dearly, and I know that I've hurt her severely, but that doesn't stop me from wanting to make things right with myself first and then with her. Here's to hope!