Since April of 2013, that's the last time I had any benzos. Going off of them nearly killed me. But now, my pdoc is saying he wants me to have some for when the anxiety is unbearable, and also to ratchet down my phobia of the stairs.

I do want relief for this ridiculous phobia but I'm afraid I'll never get over the benzo sicknesses. If only I could deal with the stairs I could keep saying no to the benzo. I don't know what to do. :/